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The Power Transformation Podcast
From Addiction to Healing: Faith, Loss, & New Beginnings with Gina Economopoulos
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Some journeys break you, but others remake you.
Author and Inspirational Speaker Gina Economopoulos’ life is a testament to resilience, healing, and the unexpected paths that lead us home to ourselves. From growing up in a large family to navigating health challenges, spending time as a nun, and battling addiction, every chapter of her story shaped her in ways she never imagined. After experiencing profound loss - including the passing of her significant other/boyfriend - she found deep healing in an unexpected calling as an end-of-life doula, helping others find peace in life’s most sacred transitions. Her journey is a powerful reminder that even in our darkest moments, hope, faith, and purpose are always waiting to be rediscovered.
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Introduction to Gina's Journey
Alethea FeltonWhat if I told you that hope can be discovered even in our darkest moments and that the struggles in your life can actually lead to your reclaiming of your life's purpose ? Well y'all , let me tell you . My guest today , , epitomizes all of that . She is a captivating and inspiring , resilient speaker for all audiences , and she is so vulnerable in everything that she shares . She is our guest today and , with that being said , welcome to the Power Transformation Podcast .
Alethea FeltonI am your host , Alethea Felton , and I want to jump right into this interview . But first , thank you to those of you who have been with me since the very beginning . I am grateful for you and for those of you who may be new to this podcast , welcome , welcome , welcome . I am so thrilled that you are here , and it is because of you , my audience , that this podcast continues to thrive and will continue doing so . And go ahead and follow and subscribe , as well as share this episode with at least 10 people that you know . Go ahead and text them , email them and let them know that they need to listen to this interview and follow the Power Transformation Podcast , because we are a movement and there is no stopping us .
Alethea FeltonNow we're going to jump right into this interview and , as customary , we always begin with a positive affirmation here on the Power Transformation Podcast . So I will say the affirmation once and you repeat it I inspire myself and others to find hope , strength and purpose in every challenge . It is my honor to have this incredible woman as my guest today on the Power Transformation podcast and , as you heard a little bit from the intro , has a story . I mean I could see her story being a movie because it is so loaded with so many experiences in a great way . So welcome , gina , to the Power Transformation Podcast .
Gina EconomopoulosThank you , alethea . I was looking forward to this , since . I met you before , so I'm happy to be here and with your listeners .
Alethea FeltonThank you , I am too . And audience . I want you all to know I am serious about that . The first time , gina and I had our Zoom because I screen all of my podcast guests . But , honestly , it's also a chance , I think . Personally , I think it's a way for podcast guests to see okay , do I really want to be on this person's show Because there's a lot of people out there . But my whole point is that immediately , gina , instantly , I felt such a connection . I just liked her spirit and I was like she seems like a lot of fun and I like people who are just authentic . And so , with that being said , I want to start with just a fun , lighthearted , icebreaker question , just to kind of get us going . Okay , all right , gina , my question for you is what is an ideal weekend for you ? How do you like to spend your weekends ?
Gina EconomopoulosOh , fun , that's it . No , no , what . What I do is on my weekends . Uh , I like to , I like , I enjoy golf . So if we have a great , if we , if it's a nice sunny day , even in November , on the New Jersey shore , uh , my boyfriend and I will gravitate and go to the golf course and my weekend is also like Sunday , is like a time of also of just rest , rest , you know , just rest and and see what's out there . And we live by the beach . So you know when , when it's a nice day , even in November , I grab it . We gravitate to the beach , we gravitate where heaven and earth meet . So that's that's what I mean . I'm very easygoing . I'm not a life of the party out there person anymore . I'm more like okay , let's uh hone in , you know , in in the in the weekend , uh , we have some sometimes . If we have some events like to watch my niece go play soccer or things like that , then I enjoy that . I like outdoors , so I really enjoy being out there .
Alethea FeltonAnd I really appreciate you giving that particular answer , because I knew , of course , that you lived on the Jersey Shore , but I'd like to find out things about my guests and to hear that you enjoy golf . I really , really like the fact that you said that , that you enjoy golf . I really , really liked the fact that you said that because as a kid so I will tell you outside of mini golf , I've never played like real golf . But growing up as a kid which might be a little strange I loved watching golf when I was a kid and a kid I mean under 10 years old I was watching golf matches . I didn't start that young , yeah . No , I don't know what attracted me to golf . I don't really watch it anymore , but I know as a small kid something about golf fascinated me . I have no idea why , but the fact that you play is quite interesting , wow .
Gina EconomopoulosI just started playing , maybe four years ago . My partner , he loves to play and he's so patient , so that's why I'm able to play . And , matter of fact , yesterday we went out . We went to go play nine holes and I kept hitting it straight , not far , but straight .
Alethea FeltonThat's wonderful , and so you mentioned that you live now on the Jersey Shore . But let's go back some leading up and of course we will get into what you do . But let's go more into the foundations of who you are . Tell us a bit about your upbringing and what it was like growing up in a household , as you did , with your parents , siblings , et cetera , and how your childhood shaped who you would eventually come , especially in your early adult years .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , I was born in New York , on Long Island , so I by the water , I mean I grew up going to the beach , having a pool in the backyard . From a family of eight kids , one of seven , I'm the seventh child my parents unconditionally love my family . Love I mean my family and my I should say my family , my parents . As a child , I wanted to shape myself . I wanted . My dream was to get married by the time I turned 18 and have eight kids by the time I turned 25 . Wow , because that's how impressive my parents were to me and to us , to the whole family , the close-knit family . Yeah , we had our problems we all do but the same thing was that unconditional love . And for me personally , I was . You know , I grew up , I was the one , I should say , out of all the eight children .
Gina EconomopoulosI was born with a lot of health problems and a lot of difficulties . So throughout my childhood I wasn't , I was not an athlete , I was physically limited to run because I was born with a hip dislocation and I had many kinds of surgeries . I had extra calcium deposits and I , even though my parents had loved me and I experienced that love , I kind of grew up in myself with like a poor , low self-esteem , like I was sort of like trying to fit into the groups on the outside , you know , peer pressure , and so it was sort of like I was living like a facade . In hindsight I look back , because I kept smiling , I had the greatest smile . Everybody loved me . They called me Gina Lola Brigida , which is a famous sister , a famous actress , you know , and so I was loved . I was loved and then I was spoiled , but at the same time I wanted to be like my sisters . At the same time I wanted to run . At the same time I was looking at the grass on the other side , so to speak .
Gina EconomopoulosYou know , as they said , and so I felt , you know , I had this like self-pity , insecurity with myself . I felt inadequate , I felt I didn't feel like I was pretty or I wasn't popular . So , growing up and think like I , once again I have to emphasize thank God for my parents' love , because that's what kept me going . You know , it wasn't a dysfunctional love , it was a love , but I had a dysfunctional love for myself because what I perceived , you know , of what I wanted and that kind of so I mean I and I I mean I speak for myself but at that age you wanted to fit into all the crowds . You want to be loved and be accepted , etc . Etc .
Gina EconomopoulosThat was Gina , that was me know that was the little Gina that just wanted okay , if you were drinking , I'll go to the drinking . Or if you're doing this , I will go do this , you know I ? It was sort of like , yeah , okay , I'm Gina and everybody loved me . How could you not ?
Gina EconomopoulosI would say but at the same time , I just was like a unique individual and I always said that and I don't know why I felt that , but I always said that I felt because I was friends with this group and this group and this group of people in high school and then , when it came to college , talking about
The Icebreaker: Weekend Plans
Gina Economopoulosfun , that was my middle name , gina Fun , economopolis and my meaning of fun was drinking .
Gina EconomopoulosMy meaning of fun is like let's be the center of attention , you know , let's do stupid things so that everybody will like me . And I took that and I went to a small school , which I did in Connecticut , and I thought I had fun , you know , but it wasn't like it wasn't a , it was sort of a fun trying to get people , like I said , get people's attention . I did a lot of drinking in college . I I my major was social work . I have a heart of service by nature . You know I could whatever , I don't mind , I love helping people . But at the same time I needed I really didn't help myself . You know , I was trying , I was doing every for everyone . I'm a people pleaser . And then , not only in college , I became a pool shark . So I was shooting pool in college because , hey , there's little and I'm short , I mean I may look tall here .
Gina EconomopoulosBut , mind you , I'm not even five feet tall to your listeners you know , oh , okay . Yeah , so I'm this little petite , cute little person that everybody loved , but Gina did not love herself even in college days , listening .
Alethea FeltonThis is what intrigues me , and we'll go , of course , into more , but based on who you were . Then let's bring it to present day . If someone were to ask you to describe yourself , how would you describe who you are now ?
Gina EconomopoulosHappy , joyous and free . Wow Happy joyous and free .
Alethea FeltonYeah , someone who loves .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , those are the three words that came to me . Yeah .
Alethea FeltonAnd something special about you , Gina , is that you are what's considered an end-of-life doula . So for a person who may be unfamiliar with what that is , putting it in layman's or practical terms , what exactly is an end-of-life doula ?
Gina EconomopoulosTo put it in layman terms , it's a non-medical practice of being with someone who is dying , leaving this world , transferring , going to , whether it's heaven or Buddha . That's what an end of life do is being present to the dying . Make it simple , more simpler .
Alethea FeltonAnd it's very interesting that you would have this passion and also a gift to ensure that people transitioned free at peace and to make that experience as beautiful as possible . And for some audience members they may think beautiful , how can you make death beautiful ? But from my experiences , but also through my faith , it can be something where you're ushering someone into that next level . And this is what brings me to this question Part of your journey you mentioned early on that you did a lot of drinking . You mentioned early on that you did a lot of drinking . Let's talk about that aspect of this social drinker .
Gina EconomopoulosHow did that social drinking eventually affect your overall life ? Well , it just you know the social drinking because I escaped life . My drinking was escaping life . I was a runner , not running physically , but running from my life , running from Gina , running from who I was . And plus , I carried so much pain in my life , just whether it was through rejection or physical pain or mental pain .
Gina EconomopoulosI used the drinking socially but it was sort of like a medication for me to say okay , I know how to get rid of it . I know how to get rid of it . You know I I want , I don't want . You know , I want to be someone that maybe other people want me to be , or I don't want to be who I want to be . So with drinking it's a mood alterner . You know it takes you anyone who drinks . Ok , some people could do one drink , fine , some could do one , two , three , and it gets you dizzy , whatever . But it becomes someone you think you want to be but you're really not that person .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , and that's that's what I was seeking for is trying to find the Gina inside me of what I wanted to be . And I thought drinking at first it was socially . In college I did a lot of my drinking because it was escaping . It was escaping , it was being the popular person at the same time . It was just a way of denying my light . You know , denying everything is trying to be that fun person . I mean there's certain meanings , there's fun , but then there's make up fun , like I thought drinking was fun and and uh , and it's not for me , it's not , I can't , I , I that's not , that's not my , that's not in my category anymore . Yeah .
Alethea FeltonAnd , and the reason I bring it up and we'll come back to the end of life , doula but what I'm doing is painting a picture for the listener or the viewer , especially because , as humans , I think that our lives are so multi-layered and that certain decisions that we make in our life that may not seem as favorable does not determine the outcome of who we are as people , because we all have a challenge or challenge in the past .
Alethea FeltonWe've all had struggles , but there is still a level of worth that we all have in spite of the choices that we've made . And one of those key principles for me in my life , gina , has been faith , as it has even been for you , which leads me to the fact that your story , even with the book you wrote that we'll talk about your story , is filled with resilience and faith . So take us back to a pivotal moment of your life , gina , where you were led to actually join a convent convent , and tell us what were you seeking and how did that experience as a nun shape your view of your life's purpose , as well as your faith .
Gina EconomopoulosYes , there was a time in my life , before being a convent , where it began my faith journey . It was the death of my mom . My mom died back in uh , january of 2000 , not 2000 , 1992 , and I was 23 years old . I'm done , I'm , you know . I left . I graduated from college , living with my family for a couple of years . I was bartending , which I thought that was my life fun , right , still searching , one would think at the age of 23, . You would love yourself , but I didn't . And my mom was diagnosed with cancer and terminally ill , four to six months to live . She had bone cancer .
Gina EconomopoulosI happened to be at home at this time with my dad to take care of her and that , in a sense , was like I felt , like my role throughout my life is that I always I felt like the black sheep . My role was like it always happens to Gina , poor Gina , poor Gina , poor Gina . So by this time , poor Gina , poor Gina , poor Gina . So by this time yeah , it figures . You know , to me it was like it was the greatest gift to take care of my mom . But at the same time I'm like why me ? Why am I here ? Why don't I have my eight kids by now , why don't the ? But , needless to say , you know , my mom died .
Gina EconomopoulosI was raised Catholic but I , at this point , when my mom died , I did not have a connection with God . I didn't . I left . I didn't leave the Catholic Church , I just didn't believe in it . I stopped going , I didn't believe in . It's not that I didn't believe in God , I just stopped going to church . I was , I didn't have time for church or God . So when my mom died , it was I died too . So when my mom died , it was I died too . And I look back now talking about faith , no hope , no love and no God . And I experienced that when my mom died , I was in hell , in my soul and my life and everything .
Gina EconomopoulosSo after you know , here , having this dark pain and experience , I started searching . That's what Gina goes for . She searches . Maybe we could call it perseverance , but I call it like just trying to find answers . What is the purpose of life ? And that was my first encounter of death and heaven . I was like what is the purpose of life ? Why do people live and die ? And in that back to my catholic roots . And then it's . I did another . I did a 360 degree turn , because here I was living a life of a party scene . Mom dies , finding God . Come back to my roots and I'm like a Saint Paul's
Growing Up: Challenges and Resilience
Gina Economopoulosconversion , like , uh , he got knocked off the horse , I got knocked off the bar stool . I got knocked off the bar stool . I say it's like , oh , I found God . I found the resurrection that we experienced , that Christians experience on Easter . I didn't realize it , but it had to be through my mom's death . And then , in that it was like , okay , I'm going to be a nun , boom , boom , boom . Because , to remind you in the audience , I'm here .
Gina EconomopoulosI entered the nunnery about 29 years old . I was still searching for that purpose in my heart , in my life . I was still searching for that peace within me . So I figured the sisterhood . I figured that would be it . You know , I give my life to God . I love God . I give my life to God . My faith is growing . This is it , this is it . And . But , as you can see , it's not . I'm not a nun anymore , none of this . But anyhow , I was in the convent for 12 years and I know you asked me about my comment and how's it shaped me and my faith that , once again , I just kept pushing .
Gina EconomopoulosI just kept pushing . I experienced a lot of pain , a lot of suffering , a lot of betrayal , a lot of rejection . It was so much . But at the same time , aletha , I didn't have it in me to say you know what this is wrong ? Because I was so broken within me that here I was with a community . You know , god bless them . At that time , in my heart , in my situation , my experience , it was dysfunctional . And when you have two sickies come together , you don't make a wellie . They say , that's right yeah .
Alethea FeltonBut that was my experience . That's right yeah .
Gina EconomopoulosBut that was my experience . I did not know better , I didn't know who I was . Yes , I had that faith . Yes , I tasted the resurrection , but at the same time , talking to you now , alethea maybe that held me through kept pushing me through , because I had made final vows as a nun , like marriage . Yes , yes , exactly , I married God . I was in front of like 800 people laid down my life , the vow of poverty , chastity , obedience to this community , not only first to God , to the community and to the people of the Bronx . And I love the people of the Bronx , I love God , this community . Not that I didn't love them , we just didn't gel , we just didn't click . So after years , after being in final vows , like I said , it's marriage , it was just a hardship , challenging difficulty . They asked me to go away to get some help . Okay , I'll you know I would do anything because I had a ring on my finger .
Alethea FeltonI had a ring .
Gina EconomopoulosAnd all along , up until the real challenges and the difficulty , all along they kept saying you belong here , you belong here , and me I trusted them because they're the voice of God that I believe at that time . And then at the end , they said you don't belong here . And me , I trusted them because they're the voice of God that I believe at that time . And and then at the end , they said you don't belong here anymore . And it was after and , and it was sort of I mean , I , I personally , felt like I was kicked out , or I felt like I was pushed against the wall . I did everything I could , you know , and there and there's that saying you poured your blood , sweat and tears you know , it's like you .
Gina EconomopoulosYou , you empty yourself and in a way it's like Jesus emptied himself , you know , and so I kind of I emptied myself , but then it just didn't fit . So I had to move on , and at this point I was broken . Uh , I did , I did have my faith . I just couldn't , I didn't understand it . I didn't understand why , like my questions were God , you chose me and now you don't . You know , you married me , now you don't . And so it was , in a way , it did shape me , but it didn't shape me .
Alethea FeltonNow it shaped me in hindsight yeah , I want to say it didn't shape you instantly but it did exactly , and wow that that is so amazing . You would even say that because , as I'm listening to you , I'm sitting here like wow , although it was so uncomfortable and painful , gina wouldn't be who she is today had she not gone through that .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , wow , it's so true . And also I know when I was in the midst of it it was so painful and even to this day I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy . Even back then I remember saying to myself thank God it was me that this was happening to me , not another sister in the combat or not it because it would break them . I'm surprised . I mean there was a point , alethea , that I was so broken that I wanted to leave , broken that I wanted to leave . I could have left . It wasn't like I was , you know , glued to them , but I knew if I left I would have had to put myself in a real treatment center . So I was like I got to keep going because I did go away .
Gina EconomopoulosI did go away to a treatment center , but it wasn't my own . I mean , it was through the community . They wanted me to go away , which I did , and it was a lot of hard work . But yet , if I quit , if I had stopped then to say you know , look what you're doing to me , which I wish I wanted to say I leave with nothing on my back because I didn't have anything . I lived a life of poverty , so I had a full habit , nothing . But if I had decided at that moment , which I was going to , to say why am I putting up with this stuff ? Why am I you know my family people saying why are you ? You came from this big family , a big community .
Alethea FeltonAnd I was curious as to what was your family or people who loved you thinking Well , my dad was still alive .
Gina EconomopoulosHe loved me unconditionally , whether I was in the combat attic whatever I did .
Gina EconomopoulosI had some of my family's members saying it was a cult , uh and um , ironically , when the sisters asked me to go away , I had a couple choices and one ways to go a therapeutical place and um , they they kind , they said to me maybe you need to look at , maybe something happened to you when you were a family , when you were a child with your family . So I'm like , okay , I'm thinking , and so one time , right after that , I was with my family for some reason and I asked them , and my brother says now , who put Gina in the closet ? Let's figure this one out .
Alethea FeltonBut nobody did , nobody did .
Gina EconomopoulosIt was just my own perception of myself , it was just my own being , it was just the way I grew up , where I , when I grew up , or it was just with all the physical problems , it was all that . But yet , you know , during this incident with the nuns I am I look back now it was truly God carrying me through , because he would put like an angel or something like more strength to get me through it . Okay , I'll do it . You know , there was a time where I didn't want to . You know I wasn't going to do it , but then somebody would talk to me Okay , I'll do it . I'll do it and I'll see what the future holds . I'll do what the future holds . I'll do it with the future holds .
Alethea FeltonSo it leads me now to wondering once you left the convent maybe not by full choice , but it turned out to really be a blessing for you and once you left out of the convent and here you were , although left with some of these broken pieces and maybe not with the exact healing you were seeking as you went in . Let's talk about then . Where do you go from there ? How did you start to build this supportive network towards healing ? When did you say okay , now , this , this is my new life , I need to start picking up the pieces and , on top of that , just kind of talk about what led you to healing fully from the alcohol and ultimately becoming this end of life doula . So you have the floor to take it any way that you want to . What was that healing journey like ?
Gina Economopoulosto take it any way that you want to . What was that healing journey like ? Well , when I left the convent , I went to go live with men with disabilities here in New Jersey adult transition I was like a house mom . It was the best thing ever for me because I'm in my 40s . It's the late 2000 , 2008 , whatever , 2009 . Didn't know what the world , didn't know nothing , because I lived an austere life , slept on the floor , had nothing , nothing , nothing . So , living with these men with Down syndrome and ladies with autism that , to me , was a great transition because I did experience healing from them and if you're ever among anyone with disabilities , down syndrome , it's such a blessing and such a gift .
Gina EconomopoulosI always said you know , here we say they have disabilities , but , to believe it or not , they have ability to love where we , as , who are normal , have a disability to love . So we're the disability people . That's what I've learned a lot , and there were so many other things I learned . But that was my transition time and that's where it was the beginning of of healing . But at the same time it was the beginning of back to drinking again , because now I could drink fully , you know , like I don't have to hide it in the convent or you know , hey , I'm free , I could go to the bar because , you know , you never see a nun in a bar in a full habit . So it was like something . I gravitated to something once again take the pain away . And so that's what I did , and I did that for two years and it was like , once again , it was a blessing , it , it was a great blessing . And then at the end of the two years I was there , I was , I was kind of itching in my own skin where I just was like tired of serving this , like not only being a house mother for those two years but even prior to that as a nun . You know , I , we took care of the elderly , the , the youth , the dying , everyone . It was sort of like I was always hands on and serving the gang members , helping them out .
Gina EconomopoulosAnd so I wanted to do what Gina wanted to do and what Gina loved was the beach . And so it was my first time ever to rent a winter rental , which I never knew before because I'm clueless and I'm in my early 40s . And thank God I had furniture , because I wouldn't know how to get the furniture . That's how blind I was with a lot of things of life . And thank God I had a handful of friends that helped me on the way , saying do this , don't do this . And then , of course , I had to get a job . But my dad was still alive at the time , very supportive , helping me out to get back on my feet . You know , as parents like I will help you get back , and so I . So I had to get a job , and what did I do ?
Gina EconomopoulosI went back to bartending , because that's the only thing I know how to do in my life at the time was bartending , nunnery , which one ? I went back to bartending because I needed to make money . Plus , it was sort of like a social yeah , because I didn't know anyone . When I came to the shore it was like , you know , social atmosphere . Okay , because I have a personality . Plus , hey , everyone , you know , like this and I'm surrounded by drinking , which I'm very comfortable with . So there was one day when I just started working and trying to get my life back in order , all right , and trying to figure out what God wants me to do , you know , took a break from the service work , and then that's where Danny walked in . A gentleman walked into the bar , he ordered a beer , we talked , we talked , we talked and it was like , wow , this guy is nice , like very new in relationships , very new . And I and I do have to say this is two years after I left the nunnery when- I met .
Gina EconomopoulosDanny , and but prior to that , if I met a guy , whether it was in a bar or on a train , I would tell him everything about me being a sister getting kicked out . And I'm like thinking it's a great conversation Over sharing . Yeah .
Alethea FeltonOver sharing and .
Gina EconomopoulosI'd be like hey , you know , do you want to take my number ? We'll go out for pizza , sure , sure , and I'll never hear from them . And then a friend of mine who's a mother of eight children you know who's in the world says don't tell them you were a nun or a sister . Too much information . So when Danny came in , I didn't say I was a nun , but I was like okay , I'm holding back my tongue Because I'm very open and honest . I mean , give me a couch , I'll tell you my whole life , you know .
Gina EconomopoulosSo that's how I looked at it and because I always felt when you talk and share things , healing takes place , whether we know it or not . You know , that's how I looked at it and I wanted to be healed , that's all . I wanted to be full , whole again . So when Danny came , so here we talked , talked , went out , went out and then it comes to find out that he was an alcoholic and so and he was drinking at the time and I did not , to be honest , I did not know what an alcoholic was . I thought it was like a bum under the bridge with a paper bag . You know that was my why ?
Alethea Feltonno , yeah , uh-huh , yeah , like everything you see on tv exactly like that .
Gina EconomopoulosSo , and and here he was a retired cop , so I'm like , how could he be an alcoholic ? So , um , and , but he had encouraged me to go to al-anon , which is a 12-step program , you know , for those who have , you know in a family disease or so I went to Al-Anon .
Gina EconomopoulosI figured this is the way I'm going to stop Danny to drink . But I realized you know , I learned the hard way . You can't stop him to drink . You know it's a disease .
Gina EconomopoulosI learned about alcoholism . I also learned when I was in Al-Anon hearing other people's stories about growing up in a dysfunctional family and you know what they went through , their feelings and everything like that . And I was like , oh my God , I felt like that when I was in the convent All the fear , all the rejection , all the like . Let's hide everything . So my first thought was that in hindsight , when I looked at this moment , I remember being in this one meeting saying my convent , the sisters , was one big alcoholic without picking up a drink . You know they had all the isms like manipulation and hiding and running . And plus I was sick too . Like I said , it was two sickies can't make a wellie .
Gina EconomopoulosSo here I'm learning about Al-Anon and he's going to to his meetings and he's getting sober , he's going to this treatment . I'm like okay , because when he was sober he was a great man , like , and he loved me . For me Like uh , he always said he loved I was like wow , oh my God , you know . And I and I saw the love in him and the love , and we did , we had that love . And then , uh , one day he found his , he found his sobriety , finally out in the west coast in arizona . And so he he said you know , gina , would you come out here ? I said I'll go wherever you go , even if it's a tip up to for your sobriety , because , once again , alethea , this is it , this is my life . I'm not going to get have the eight kids , but I may have a white ticket .
Gina EconomopoulosFence you know , to love and to be loved , and that's another thing we all yearn for .
Gina EconomopoulosAnd um , so he went off to Arizona and he drove cross country with his mom and they got into a tragic car accident and the mom died and he got burned up Tragic story and and this was all in Indianapolis . And so of course I got that phone call that morning that that makes your whole life 360 degree turn . You know , your future ripped out of you , but Danny was still survived . He survived that accident and so I went out to . What did I do as a , as a good woman , girlfriend is to go out to Indianapolis to support him , to be with him .
Gina EconomopoulosWe got involved with the , the AA meetings over there and the Al-Anon and a group of people came to help us supporters to , to a couple , jim and Brenda . They were so awesome to us , led us into their house , loved us . They each had , you know , a number of years of sobriety and we're like this is it ? This is it , god , you know , but still , I still really didn't know much . You know , here I am thinking okay , danny , you know , god , you saved Danny from me , even though he was burnt on like 50% of his body . Well , uh , we , we ended up settling out there , we got engaged , everything was great , got a wedding date , but little behold , his disease act up and he picked up again , and so he started drinking and I'm like why are you ?
Gina Economopoulosdrinking and that's what I've learned . You know , as alcoholics we drink , our pain emotional . We can't handle anything and he saw his mother burn up Like he was in this fire . So not only physically , emotionally , he drank . But what did I do ? Instead of like being compassionate to him and helping him , I like kicked him . I'm like I can't believe you're drinking like this because I was sick . I was still a sick puppy and then ultimately , a few months after that , he died .
Gina EconomopoulosI found him dead uh in his apartment so this is , this is , you know , leading leading into my . The pit of my death , of my pain , is when I found Danny dead . Uh , he , he ended up falling , hit his head and and he died . I mean , he was dead for a few days before he was found , and this was in Indianapolis . So now my heart was broken with the sisters , and here I kept chugging with God , and now here with Danny , I was flatlined , my God , I was totally flatlined , my God , I was totally flatlined . I was shattered , my heart was shattered . I would always say this is the way I would say it when you break glass , those pieces , you could put them together , but when a glass is shattered , you can't put them together . What do you do ?
Alethea Feltonwith it . It's just not the bigger pieces , but it's those little grainy shards of glass yeah .
Gina EconomopoulosAlmost polarizes . But what do you do with it ? You throw it away .
Alethea FeltonThat's right and that's how I felt .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , that's how I felt . I was at that point where I'm thrown away . I'm yeah , that's how I felt . I was at that point where I'm thrown away . I'm simply existing . I'm like yeah .
Gina EconomopoulosI've been trying my whole life to find purpose . I've been trying my whole life to find that peace within me . And here , after Danny's death , after everything I've done and even like I knew , like Danny loved me for myself and that was the first time I experienced it . And here I'm telling God , I says you know , he loved me for me and the sisters love me the way they love pizza .
Gina EconomopoulosThat's how I explained it , I mean , and so I was . So it was another pivotal , you know , moment in my life that I was , I
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Gina Economopouloswas dead , and and at that time after that , like a few months after that , I was with my sister , because at this point I couldn't live . But I was with my sister . She lives on a lake and I just started . That's when I began my writing . I wrote everything out , I wrote the pain of Danny , but then all of a sudden I wrote pages of pain as a sister , like real pain , that I never told anyone what was going on within those walls , that was happening to me , that I never told anyone what was going on within the in those walls that was happening to me , that I experienced , you know . It was like , oh , and that all came out . That all came out .
Gina EconomopoulosI wrote 186 pages . I put that aside . Uh , then I decided I said let me come back to Jersey . Danny was dead , mom was dead , his mom was dead . Uh , it's not only that I lost the home here in jersey , but I lost the home in my heart . Um , and I , I was , I mean , I , I don't really remember exactly I understand that through , yeah , but .
Gina EconomopoulosBut then there was a time where I decided , I decided . But I looked back . It was God . You know the way I look back . God did for me what I could not do for myself and I went into the rooms of AA . I went to an AA meeting because I wanted searching again . My purpose , my search is like why are you sober and Danny's not ? I don't understand it . He was sober , he was doing the right thing . He gets into an accident and then you know what I mean , like how , how he lost his mom . You know , like God , why , why all this ? And why are these people in these rooms that are sober , have years of sobriety and like this ? I couldn't understand so as .
Gina EconomopoulosI continue to go into these meetings ? I did not . I was not an alcoholic at the time , I did not think so . So I , I just went in with anger . I identify myself as a desire not to pick up , you know , just just to be , just to be there . You know , and , and I was there for about 10 months , and then , all of a sudden , about a month before that , a friend of mine came up to me and says you know , gina , you come to these meetings every day . You don't say you're an alcoholic , but what is your relationship with alcohol ? What is my relationship with alcohol ?
Gina EconomopoulosAnd then I , once again , I had to go back to all that pain and , yeah , alcohol is my best friend . To all that pain , and , yeah , alcohol is my best friend . Ah , you know , I had blackouts , like I had the pain of an alcohol . You know what we experienced when we come into these rooms , and what did I want to do is I wanted to escape denial , run , manipulate all this . So , on April 2 , 2015 , I raised my hand and I said my name is Gina and I am an alcoholic . And I was like , oh my God , where did that come to ? Yeah , and then , and it's like you would think you know now , in hindsight , once again , it was the worst day of my life , but it was the best day of my life . You know when we look back life , you know when we look back . But when I said that , everything , my whole body , my spirit , my heart , opened up and when it opened up there was so much pain , more pain , because everything I was carrying , my insecurities , my fear , my anger , my resentment , my grief , everything , everything I was carrying , my situations just opened up and I felt like somebody saying to me now , what are you going to do with this ? You're going to go drink it away like you normally do , or are you going to go on your self-pity couch , which you normally do like isolate , and do all that ? I mean , what do you want to do ? And I was like I want to live . I mean , what do you want to do ? And I was like I want to live because up until then I did not want to live .
Gina EconomopoulosUp until then I wish I , you know , I was like you know , take me , god , I would never kill myself , but take me , take me . Oh , I woke up this morning . Oh , crap , I got another day to live here , you know . But . But there was a moment where I was like , oh my God , and . But it didn't happen overnight , it was a one day at a time . And and I did , I joined . They would say the club , or I'm a , I'm a member of it . Today , I participated .
Gina EconomopoulosIt has helped me so much in living life and to answer your questions about where my healing and everything took place , like you had asked me that you know of later on in life . This is where my healing has taken place so much because I come to find out who I was . I'm an alcoholic , but yet I'm also . I come to find out I'm a child of God , because being an alcoholic doesn't . It is who I am . But being in recovery is most important , like being a sober child . I'm a woman of faith . I'm a woman of faith that is sober today . Because now I like Gina , you know , now it's like because I have a program , a program to help me not only stay sober but to heal , to grow in my sobriety , to grow in my love for my God , which my higher power , which I choose to call God , which is my God now .
Gina EconomopoulosBecause when I first came in I'll just share this real quick when I first came into the rooms , everyone would talk about God and at this point I hated God with a passion and I was at one point I was afraid to say it because people's like no , you can't hate God . Yes , I can , I have every right to hate God . And that's how I felt , because . And then people would say to me oh , but no , you know , god loves you . And I'm thinking to myself , cause they did not know I was a sister and so I would think to myself you know , yes , I can hate God .
Gina EconomopoulosI'm divorced to him . I know who he is . I was married to God . You know it's like , and it was . It was sort of the way I looked at it was that it was like a husband and wife . You know separation , you know I always say , I always say God , you're sleeping on the couch tonight I don't want to talk to you .
Alethea FeltonI mean because he knows my heart .
Gina EconomopoulosYeah , and so so . So then , of course , I reenter a new relationship with my God , and it's a much deeper one , much more spiritual than I ever have .
Gina EconomopoulosI incorporate not only the tools of the program . I'm back working with scriptures from this Holy Bible app healthy solution instead of being in a negative solution by holding my pain , running from my pain , being very fearful , paralyzed by fear , with grief poor me , poor me , look at me everything . Oh , look what life is happening to me . And now it's like , oh , look , look what life is happening to me . Now it's like , oh , look , look what life is happening to me . And and and I also realize , life goes on . And so in my sobriety , I experienced my dad's passing grief , but I was able to grieve in a healthy way instead of like my dad , like my mom and Danny . So everything I do today , I do it soberly , I do it with .
Gina EconomopoulosGod , yeah , I do it you know , soberly , I do it with God , yeah , in my , and I also do it with the tools of the program as well as with God , and some days are great . Some , you know , it's challenging .
Alethea FeltonIt's a day , yeah it's a day by day journey and I thank you Gina , for that , because it's it's so interesting . Sometimes when I interview people , I have a clear direction as to , okay , exactly which way I want to go . I can say I like the way this interview has gone because it was my intention . Where , you know , with you being an end of life doula , I said that's very different . It's something that the audience could really learn from .
Alethea FeltonBut in you speaking about your journey specifically with alcoholism and how you ended up joining Alcoholics Anonymous and just the whole journey with that , I can see now that that's what needed to be the crux and the heart of this interview , because there are so many people out there people even that I know who who do have this ongoing relationship with alcohol , and a lot of it stems from their own trauma and their own lack of self-worth . And we don't have a lot of time left at all in this and I could always have you to come back in the future to talk more specifically about being an end of life doula , in terms of , even with your sobriety , what would you say to say a listener who is facing setbacks and challenges and maybe they use alcohol as a comfort to them . What would you say to them to get them to heal ? Say that they're already at a point where they know this is taking control of their life . They really want to stop , but don't know what to do . What would you say directly to them ?
Gina EconomopoulosOf course I would say you're not alone .
Gina EconomopoulosDo not give up and there's so many resources out there , especially Alcoholics Anonymous all over the world and not to be afraid . And it is the greatest step courage . It's courage to step into a room the first meeting , or even to admit hi , I am an alcoholic . And there is courage in each one of us , because none of us wants to be alcoholics and none of us , you know , wants to be in that pit of pain . And there is a solution . That's my last final word . There is a healthy solution that you can find in gaining sobriety and living a life happy , joyous and free .
Alethea FeltonShake the dust off your feet and walk . Tell us about that briefly .
Gina EconomopoulosYes , that is my book title . It's exactly what my story is all about . That I came to realize it's you . I kept shaking the . I realize now . I kept shaking the dust off your feet , no matter what , no matter when I kept walking forward , no matter when I kept walking forward . And it's of course , it's a scripture from the Bible that Jesus commands his disciples that if you're not welcome , if whatever may be , just shake the dust off your feet and keep walking . And I encourage us to continue to keep walking and shake the dust , because there are miracles and there is purpose in our lives .
Alethea FeltonAnd if someone listening or watching wants to learn even more and connect with you , how can somebody go about finding you ? Are you online ? Do you have a website ? How can we buy your book , even ?
Gina EconomopoulosYou can find it on Amazon . Shake the dust off your feet and walk with my name . I do have a website , ginaeconcom . You can also purchase the book through Amazon , and I'm also doing Twitter , not Twitter , instagram and Facebook . Remember , I was a nun , so this is all new to me .
Alethea FeltonI've been a nun for 16 years .
Gina EconomopoulosAnd I'm doing TikTok , go be it . Oh , okay , because , to be honest , yes , I want to promote my book and people to read it and know that they're not alone , but it's also continuing to spread that message of hope and strength in all of us .
Alethea FeltonMm-hmm , all of those years that you spent in the nunnery and just truly understanding who you well , knowing who you are now in comparison to where you were then . What words of wisdom I don't even like to say advice , but what words of wisdom would the present you speak to that young woman who was in the convent ? What would you say to her on a day , particularly where she was having just a really hard , difficult day ? What would you tell her ?
Gina EconomopoulosI love you and don't give up . And you got this .
Alethea FeltonWell said . What a powerful transformative story . And I was not exaggerating when I said somebody needs to do a movie on your life , because I sure would watch it and you are incredible .
Alethea FeltonGirl , I'm serious , you are incredible and you know I have met some extraordinary people and humans and I truly hope that we may stay in touch . You are an inspiration and a light to me , Gina , and I am so blessed to have met you , and I continue to hope and pray nothing but the best for you going forward , and thank you again for being a guest on the Power Transformation Podcast Wow .
Gina EconomopoulosAnd thank you for your service and for your being a host on your podcast and for spreading the word of hope .
Alethea FeltonThank you for tuning in to this episode of the Power Transformation Podcast . If you enjoyed this episode , be sure to follow or subscribe , leave a five-star rating and write a review . It helps us inspire even more listeners . And don't keep it to yourself . Share it with someone who could use a little power in their transformation . Until next time , keep bouncing back , keep rising and be good to yourself and to others .